Last year, my word was good. I know, good? Why not GREAT? I really just wanted a good year, and it was a good year. 2013 had beat us up a little and I just wanted a good, ordinary year where we could recover. I definitely added more good into my life, which helped push out the bad. I’m still working on that, but it was good practice. I had plenty of practice saying “no” to things to make room for the good. It wasn’t easy, it was a very hard year, but it had its beautiful moments as well. As most years go, you know.
This year, my word is adventure. It first hit me when we were in Italy. It was a tried and true adventure. I had a moment when we were on the first train on our way to the Rome train station where we would be taking another train to Salerno, when I realized how absolutely uncomfortable I was. We had been traveling for 24 hours, we were dirty and exhausted and still had hours to go before we could rest (and take showers) and we had to stand for about forty-five minutes in a packed train. It had me thinking, how many of us romanticize adventure? We all do it, right?
Adventure is not glamorous or comfortable. It takes us OUT of our comfort zone most of the time. I mean, it’s supposed to, right? It doesn’t mean that it’s not supposed to be fun or exciting, it is, but it’s also uncomfortable. It puts you around people who may not speak your language, it takes you driving into the country in Italy and having to communicate to people who only speak Italian that you’re lost and Google doesn’t know where to send you (that was fun), it’s moving to new cities and moving away from family and friends and starting over again. It’s starting a business, it’s daring to dream of a life off the beaten path. It’s beautiful and it’s stretching, but that’s where growth happens and that’s where the work begins. You can’t have one without the other, is what I learned last year. I wouldn’t have it any other way. That trip to Italy wasn’t comfortable much of the time, but it was one of the best weeks of my life.
Last night, I couldn’t sleep. I had an amazing first day of 2015, but I went to bed feeling stressed and uncomfortable (and so it begins!) because of big dreams and seemingly large obstacles. I found myself praying, praying for peace amidst the anxiety and praying for adventure. It was strange. I felt so uncomfortable already and it was only the first day of the year, but I kept praying for that because I know it has to happen this year. I kept praying God would take me on more beautiful adventures that would push me out of my comfort zone and form me into who I am meant to be, that I would realize my strength and capabilities, that I would gain confidence and boldness. I prayed that my faith would grow. That’s my biggest desire of them all.
I think the closer we get to God and the more we pray, the more He starts to form our prayers. Those prayers were so uncomfortable to pray. I actually prayed through the anxiety and, in a way, asked for more. I would LOVE a comfortable year, because I love being comfortable, I’ll be the first to admit that, but I also have big dreams that would be impossible to attain in my own cozy and warm comfort zone. I would rather go for my biggest dreams than be comfortable, is what I’m daring to say. I also prayed that this year would be the best one yet and I think that’s completely possible as well. I can see it happening already.
And so, I want to challenge you to do the same this year. Let this be the year that you allow yourself to dream big and step out of your comfort zone. Take risks, be bold, be brave. That’s really where the magic happens. It’s where the best things in life reside.
I’m so excited to see what happens this year. As long as I put it into His hands and don’t try to control the ever-loving crap out of things, it’s going to be amazing. Let it be a wonderful, beautiful, fun, exciting adventure that takes me out of my comfort zone. Let it be a pivotal chapter in my life. I’m as ready as I’ll ever be.
Here’s to 2015, the year of:
- Being Expectant
- Finally believing in myself