Finding Peace

posted on: Wednesday, August 27, 2014

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Hello, friends. I’m just going to get right down to it, okay? Life has been a bit rough lately and today feels like the culmination of it. My Grandma Joan is in surgery right now and has been for the last 3 1/2 hours. I’d say she was in the middle of surgery but truthfully, she’s just about 1/3 of the way through. A twelve-hour surgery focused on a small, but vital artery housing a very scary tumor. I’d only heard about twelve-hour surgeries on Grey’s Anatomy. Shows how much I know about medicine, I suppose. It’s major, suffice it to say, and it’s all my brain can focus on today, all anyone in my family can focus on today.

To be honest, I am calmer than I thought I would be. God has provided me a peace that I didn’t expect to have. Imagining her surgery for the last couple of months, I expected to just be completely afraid until we knew she was 100% okay. Thankfully, I’ve been able to focus on Him and lay my anxiety at his feet as best as I can. There’s still anxiety there, of course, but there’s certainly more calm than I expected as well. That is only by the grace of God. Focusing on Him, trusting that ultimately He is in control and as I do that, my faith is growing and strengthening. Our blessings don’t depend on good or bad circumstances and ultimately He can see the whole picture, beyond what I can see. I know He is in control and for that, I am so very thankful.

If you are the praying type, would you say a prayer for my grandma and my grandpa Tony as well as my family? I appreciate it so much, more than you know. Thank you!

  • Heather

    Thinking of you and your family today. Sending healing thoughts for your grandma. Big hugs.

  • Thank you so much, Heather! I really appreciate it.