a new baby and random thoughts

posted on: Thursday, May 2, 2013

I’m in the process of cleaning out my closet and drawers, making donate/keep/sell piles and listing things on Threadflip. I have this urge to get rid of the old and in with the new and well, being mostly unemployed doesn’t allow for many shopping sprees. So I get rid of what I don’t wear(some of it’s painful to let go, some not so much) and I sell them. Pass them along to someone else who will breathe life into a piece. This allows me to release the clutter and only hold onto what I truly wear and truly enjoy.

It’s hard though, isn’t it? To let go of the old. The past. The stuff that holds us back. Can you sense that I’m talking about more than just clothes at this point? We hold onto it all and it fills our heads and closets with things that hide the best of life from us so we have to dig and search for the good stuff. For the joy, for the happy. We waste energy contemplating for the hundredth time if something looks good on us, or if something is the right choice/move for us and really if we have to ask so many times doesn’t it make the answer pretty clear? These are all the things I’m thinking of as I type so if it makes little sense, forgive me. Just the things I think about sometimes.

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My mother, the new grandma, holding her grandson.

Last week was one of the most stressful in a very, very long time. For many reasons I won’t list here. But it ended with the birth of a new family member. My sweet new nephew, Griffin Charles was born early Thursday morning. It made the stress of that week melt away the minute I held him. It was such a stark contrast to the first half of the week, one that felt like a years worth of stress was resting on our shoulders and had gathered there in just a matter of days. Then I met this baby boy. And I realized it’s all going to be okay.

Thankfully, this week has been much kinder to us. One thing I realized is that I still need to keep blogging more often. It inspires me and it’s one of my few outlets. I need words. Words help me make sense of things when life gets crazy. I love them, those words. Journaling, songwriting, blogging, conversations. Words make me happy. It’s funny that I stopped blogging as much to release myself from pressure, but I felt more difficulty not blogging than in making sure I blogged regularly. I need to find a happy medium, my sweet spot. I’m looking for it and I’ll find it when I just start sharing my heart and staying true to myself. So with that, I’m signing off for the day. To continue the decluttering and making room for the good stuff.

  • Hi Katy :) Sounds like things have been very up and down lately. I can understand that. I’m glad you’ve found some peace in the midst of it all. Finding that sweet balance with writing, time and life can be tricky. I hope you will find it soon. I enjoyed your post, and congratulations on being an Auntie :) Happy Thursday xo

  • Yes, I totally agree! The more I blog, the more inspired I become. Keep at it!

  • Blogging is such a lovely outlet for thinkers and those who just want to speak. I really enjoy your blog, Katy, because you seem somewhat similar to me. I’ve noticed on twitter that very often, you try to fight those ‘bad’ feelings that try to take over. I think you do well with keeping them at bay. Much better than I could possibly do myself. Everything in life goes by seasons (Habbakuk). Your season of pure joy will come in due time. Just continue taking it one day at a time. :-)

  • Jen

    I’m in the process of cleaning out my closet too, it’s be pending for too long now.
    How cute is that kid!? Perfect!