My big, fat, crazy dream is to be a professional singer/songwriter. It’s so easy to say this. SO easy. Well, okay, sometimes I feel completely ridiculous saying it, but speaking the words physically is not hard. I can say it out loud, feeling foolish and all. Putting action to those words is a completely different animal, you know? My problem is saying yes to myself. I say yes to help others, but can hardly say it to help myself. It’s not because I don’t want to, but I let fear make my decisions for me way too often. If it’s scary, I say no. I like to rest in my comfortable, warm bubble. I like comfort. I LOVE comfort. Too, too much. It makes me say no to myself, to my dreams. Big, scary dreams require action and often they are so far outside of the comfort zone arena. I’ve heard many success stories and they required major action. They required risk and bravery.
I’ve been thinking about this more and more lately. I need to keep my goals in my mind, write them down and use them when I’m making decisions for myself. Yesterday was step one for me. During a vocal workshop last summer, I met the lovely Jen. She’s a songwriter and has been writing for a while. She offered to help me with songwriting and I took her up on the offer. We spent five hours in a co-writing session and I learned so much! I love this. I really do love it.
Having a mentor who has done and is doing what you aspire to do, oh it helps so much! It’s the biggest blessing and makes me realize I really am on the right path. I feel like I’m so much closer to accomplishing my goal now. It’s an amazing feeling. I’m also really proud of myself for saying yes and following through. I was nervous, sure. I’ve never written with anyone else before. Who knew if I was any good? I could easily make a fool of myself, but I didn’t. I was so encouraged and am so encouraged to keep working toward my goals. From now on, I hope to say yes more and be just a bit more fearless. Or at least pretend to be.