Right now.

posted on: Tuesday, May 29, 2012

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Nola, the lizard hunter.

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Highway traffic + GPS = Back roads in South Carolina and a very happy puppy.

This weekend was spent in Orlando, mainly with family. It’s a hard thing balancing friend/family time when we’re in town. It’s usually for brief trips and with our new little niece, priority is most definitely family. We did, however, make it back to our church Sunday morning and my heart ached a little for that area of town and our friends. We used to live just five minutes from our church and got to drive around the neighborhood a bit. I miss that studio apartment, I miss being able to walk to the grocery store and the ability to go on a run in this sweet little area of Orlando. I miss it. Don’t get me wrong, I love Charlotte! I love living here and don’t regret moving at all, but I do miss the comfort that lies within a place you’ve spent a good portion of your life in.

I wish that, instead of focusing on where I wanted to go, the year before we moved to Charlotte, that I would have focused more on how lovely our little area of Orlando was. I was so focused on trying to get to Charlotte that, while I did appreciate those things and the people, it watered them down a bit.

As I write this, I realize that’s how my mind has been working lately. I see where I want to be in one year, five years, and so on and while that’s great, there needs to be a balance. I need to be patient and work hard to get there. I’ve always focused on the next step, the next place and yet have the hardest time being present. So that’s my hope, to live more in the present. To appreciate life as it is now. No matter how much you want to move onto the next thing or the next step, there will be something you miss about right now. So take a step back and look around you. Even the little things you don’t think you’ll miss much, you just might find yourself aching for one day.

  • Krista

    Love this post! I struggle with the same thing..being fully present in the current stage of life. When I was in undergrad, I was constantly longing for graduation and grad school. Now that I’ve made it to grad school I find myself always thinking about and planning for life post-graduation. Granted, the next stage includes a “big-girl job,” marriage, and a move to NC, but I still feel like I need to appreciate where God has me right now!

  • Whit

    you know what I see written on this page? I see growth. I see wisdom. I see perspective that only a few years and several hundred miles could ever provide. I see a woman who knows how she wants to live life now, and will chase after that, no regrets, but always will keep the present at hand, living in it. Where God has you is where he wants you, where He needs you, and He will provide the next step. You have that knowledge, you will walk in it.

  • Jennifer

    Wow!This post just put into words everything I’ve been feeling lately. Always focused on the next step and not the here and now. Thank you!!

  • Shannon

    Thank you soo much for this post! I just started reading your blog a few weeks ago and love it! This post hit me right between the eyes ;) I totally need to step back and cherish every moment more! Blessings!! Thanks from Shannon in Nunavut Canada

  • Nola is so stinking cute! I’m surprised you are able to get anything done with that giant goofball around.
    And I agree- it’s all about living in the present while working for the future. There’s that quote (Kurt vonegut I think) that says, “I urge you to please notice when you are happy, and exclaim or murmur or think at some point ‘if this isn’t nice I don’t know what it.”. I think you have to be aware and be thankful when you’re happy as well as when you’re not totally thrilled about life which is where it gets harder. I have a tendency to rush through things in order to get to the next thing but I’ll realize that just means I’m trying to rush through life. And who wants that?

  • I can totally relate, Krista! It seems we always make the next big move our priority. I do it alllll the time! Encouraging you to appreciate right now. All that “big girl” stuff is coming, enjoy this time now before you have more responsibilities. ;)

  • You leave the most encouraging comments, Whitney. Thank you so much for this. Learning to give it up to God daily. Not the best at it, but I’m getting better. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! Now let’s get some salted caramel brownies STAT!

  • That’s wonderful, Jennifer! I love when that happens! Someone’s trying to send you a message. ;)

  • Thank you so much for reading, Shannon! So glad you are!

    It’s easy to get lost in looking ahead at things. So thankful you got something out of this too! Happy weekend!

  • Christine– It’s harder than it looks! She’s a total goofball, it’s crazy! I love that quote. I really, truly love it. I’ll put that one away for safe keeping. ;) No one wants that! Life travels too fast as it is, doesn’t it?