A peace of faith.

posted on: Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Hello, friends! I know, I know I have been a little absent in the last week. Just a lot going on here in my world right now. Working a temporary job for a couple of weeks has thrown my schedule for a loop, but things are settling down now and I am very happy to get back to writing.

I share a little bit of my faith here and there on the blog and really feel the need to share what I’ve been feeling lately. I go through this every few months. It’s inevitable. Hopefully one day it won’t be.

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I enjoy my quiet time, time reading the word, praying, journaling, feeling amazing and then days and weeks go by before I spend that precious time reading and praying. I start to feel bogged down, stressed out and weepy. I feel exhausted and heavy instead of light and joyful. I know why, I know exactly why. Yes, there are things in my world that are getting me down as well, but when I’m feeling close to God, I feel like I can conquer anything. I feel so at peace no matter what is happening. I trust Him.

Lately, I haven’t spending the time with Him that I should and it shows. I can feel it in my bones. I can find temporary comfort in a familiar t.v. show, in time with my family, in music, but it won’t ever stick. That feeling will creep in quicker than before. It’s not something that I have to do, I am already forgiven and loved. It’s something I need to do, something I crave. There are no rules in the faith that I have. I have been set free from those rules and while I try to live the best life I can, I mess up and stumble and fall. I easily distrust and place trust in things that cannot provide.

But no matter what I do, the truth is that I am forgiven, I am free and I am so grateful. That’s why I desire to spend my time praying, reading my bible and journaling. It’s worth more than anything else in the world.

  • Whit

    I feel you girl. I feel you. My journal and devotion is SO IMPORTANT.

  • LOVE this!! Thanks for sharing! I can definitely relate. Someone once told me, when you don’t feel like reading your Bible or you don’t feel like you have time to, that’s the FIRST thing you should do…and if you don’t feel like praying, you better hit your knees! That comes back to me sometimes when I’m busy or have a poor attitude…

  • Thank you so much for sharing these words. Very encouraging. It is quite amazing how different I handle my emotions and reactions to stress when I am in the Word and daily pursuing the Lord vs. when I am not.

  • Yes! I tend to lean to a poor attitude so easily. So many other distractions are thrown in our way but it’s so important to focus on Him!

  • Oh good! Glad this could encourage you. It just makes a HUGE difference. I start praying or listening to worship music and I instantly feel as if I can breathe again. It’s amazing.